you hold my world, in the palm of your hands.

2009-09-20T23:31:00.001+08:00

holidays are slack.

been up to nothing good these days. neither anything bad hahaha. cos it gets kinda bored when holidays are overwhelming. i just got my gpa 3.71. its cooly average hahaha. aim here. 3.8 next sem! everyone jian zhen ok!

scholarship or not has been a headache. look at the benefits

800 monthly allowance
tuition fees + compulsory charges covered
1200 bonus if pass all modules in one sitting each exam

quite cool isn’t it. 5 year bond inclusive National Service. oh well, just sit on it i guess.

2009-08-26T23:07:00.001+08:00

haha hi all. its been long since i came here. and i expect it to be nicely untouched till like the next decade. haha. isn’t it pathetic that no one actually reads this?

well anyway i realised Point of Grace is such a awesome, blowing band. Inspiring lyrics, unpaired vocals. Just makes all the females in the world sound much better. LOL. i felt that way ok! Its such a girl-power album! Most of them are mothers already hahahahah.

Broken Thing (Point of Grace)

I tried to walk quickly past the water's edge
Didn't wanna see my own reflection
But I just stepped on the highest ledge
And fell into the sea of imperfection
Just like every other time before
I washed up in pieces on the shore

CHORUS
You found beauty in this broken thing
Made angels dance with wounded wings
I can't imagine anything more beautiful
You took the damaged part of me
Restored what little dignity was left inside
This broken thing
Yeah I was wading in deep despair
Wandering with no sense of direction
Thinking prayers just vanished in the air
'Cause I got myself in this situation
And just like every other time before

You made the pieces into so much more
You found beauty in this broken thing
Made angels dance with wounded wings
I can't imagine anything more beautiful
You took the damaged part of me
Restored what little dignity was left inside
This broken thing
I know I'm not worthy of
This never ending perfect love
You found beauty in this broken thing
Made angels dance with wounded wings
I can't imagine anything more beautiful
You took the damaged part of me
Restored what little dignity was left inside
This broken thing

beautiful right!!!!!!!!

I just felt free-er than free. Now that exams are over and i’m feeling quite darn uncomfortable about it. Even school days are counted as too much free time. I will never ever want to experience even the deja vu of the 6 months holidays i had ONLY A FEW MONTHS BACK. For goodness’ sake! I just started school and i had like 7 weeks holidays now with a 2-week holidays 2 months back!

maybe u think i’m asking for trouble. I’ll tell you that you are spot on. haha. would love to be busy. can’t you imagine being 17 and have nothing to do?????? whilst all your friends are busy with junior colleges and your own poly mates just don’t seem quite click.

i need some kick

in my schedule hahah! bring on CDS bring it on. BRING THEM ALL ON! HAHAH.

its just stupid wednesdays

2009-07-22T20:01:00.001+08:00

haha. i’m just too bored not to play around with my chomnia. there’s practically nothing to do on wednesday afternoons. finish school at 12.20 and leaving me alone to storm the boredom till, cca starts, in the cold TP library which seems like a terrible place to be in except in exam periods.

AND THEN CYNTHIA CALLED AND SAID TRAINING IS SOOOOO CANCELLED. that ain’t cool, is it.

at least i did something on my engineering maths. haha. if i get 100% again for the upcoming test, i’ll only need to score 62.5/100 for exam to secure GPA 4.0 of the subject. WOOOOOO. Thank God in advance for that yea babe.

oh wells. haha. silver lining here. here comes my favourite thursday! :)

maybe i’ll just need something new.. ok i need something new

2009-07-21T21:59:00.001+08:00

crazy these days. i mean crazily boring.

in the past i thought poly would be full of life and happenings. i’ve seen people getting busily busy through their time in poly but that’s not the case of mine. well i don’t exactly know what’s wrong with me or am i courting trouble. here is a guy who’s complaining his life is too free. haha. you don’t see that often do you.

somehow i guess there’s a lack of activities for me. oh yea? here is it

schedule’s here. mon and tuesday school till 5. wednesday-fri school end at 1 saturday rest sunday fully reserved for a good cause

so now i practically have 37 hours of free time on weekdays. assume i sleep very early at 10pm every night. well if lunch time and travelling time were to be excluded,its still 32 hours of rest and relax.

ok ok. maybe when CDS kicks in next term, hopefully i would be a sufficiently busy.

for the time being i might just have to think of something productive to make the time good. previously i whined about the 5 months holidays after O’s. now i’m whining about being too free. haha. when will hg ever shut up?

just too much energy to burn babe.

2009-06-20T23:25:00.001+08:00

haha. no one ever visit here. cool.

2009-06-13T20:07:00.002+08:00

he has forgotten how many times he has passed through the city areas in shorts and oversized red screaming slippers. LOL. never mind. he's just being ordinarily ordinary. that's he's attitude problem.

got a new phone. haha. named it chomnia. cos its omnia made from china MUAHAHAHA. (laugh la...-.-) kinda weird lol. it actually has a stylus and an antenna for television and radio. haha so cheapo. all in one.

so i guess INDESCRIBABLE is indeed indescribable. everyone had their fair share of learning and fun in the camp. right now i'm still feeling the after effects of the camp. seriously its really really bad i can't go yyb this sunday. :( to think that God is actually not only the creator of the heavens and the earth......and the land beneath earth(!)..., he's actually a star breather. how cool is that. new stars are formed every now and then.. poor creatues called human beings are finding it cool to even try to catch up with Him.

haha. i thought chris tomlin is outdated already. i didn't even bother to have his slightly older songs in my mp3 hahah. i'm just so sorry about that.

oh man, the camp is just great.

2009-05-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

so i guess what i feared the most actually came to past, C clashes with practice. sorry i just gotta pen this down because i lost quite a few strands of hair because of it.

when it comes to this kind of situation, i think i could look no further to Abba. people often often will advise to ask Abba of His will for me in such situations. but then i came to a point whereby i realise being either in C or practice would not deter the way He views me, nor feels about me. i firmly firmly believe in both ways i would be greatly blessed

²⁸ And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. [romans 8:28]

so if God, according to verse 28, would cause EVERYTHING to work together, why the headache, just go ahead of what you feel like it la! i feel thats quite chim to answer. so i turned to the fundamental questions of why C would be such enticing to me.

i asked why. cos C promises a good ground to build the fragile body of mine, brings great fun to polo in a whole different way and also would be a source of SEAL points for my university admin. anyway, i think its the SEAL points that is the reason why i was searching for a activity like C in the very first place. if SEAL points were dirt, no one would ever want to waste time accquiring them.

So if the purpose of going to C were to aquire SEAL points just for my uni admission, wouldn't i be doubting verse 28? if God will send me to uni, he will cause everything to work together to get me there! if he created the heavens and the earth with just a breadth, whats a uni admission in a tiny red dot to Him? is His auhority too small to do that? i know it sounds absurb, which anyway would be a norm for such God-logic.

'For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. [jeremiah 29:11, New american standard]

so like a light unto my path, i'm supposed not to be planning my route like the others did to thiers, but to stay in my calling, work on my raw talent(haha), use it for his glory. anyway, this is a perfect chance to experience what's really like to live by faith.

so i'm done with why i chose not to commit my time to C. i'm moving on why i chose practice over C. its a little shorter. haha.

God and his people in practice has showed great commitment in me(as i have in them), as clearly shown in the past few months, i definitly would name drumming the last to lose if i were to keep only one ability.

let's look what mary has done.

³⁸ As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. ³⁹ Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. ⁴⁰ But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.”

⁴¹ But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! ⁴² There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”

Here, don't i wanna be/do what Mary has been/done? Mary knows what to let go, what to embrace in her life, that is Jesus, and have pleased God by doing so. God does care about how well i do in poly, but none weighs as much as the love i have for the Lord, in this i believe, God holds the love i have higher than the need for the Seal points.

When He created the heavens and the earth, didn't he meant it for me to enjoy? Did He have to ask me whether i want it or not? No. If He wills me to go uni, nothing except me can stop it. If He wills not, nothing except me can make me go.

At most, let the passion for C be an alabaster jar, which i break before your feet. At most, let my time in practice be your 5 loaves 2 fishes, use it to bless others, which i would be honoured to be part of. MUACKS.

2009-05-04T20:49:00.005+08:00

welcome to effcom. this irritating subject which preaches heavily on the correct usage of standard english. look at this. now i know why is this lesson only available online, cos there's no teacher who can speak the way they expect the students to do so, for what i know so far.

WOW. AEROSPACE ENGINEERING.

2009-04-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

i'm happy that i bought today's New Paper. haha. here are some weird news that filled my thoughts.

facebook group, of 400 people, named 'Singapore sucks!' . was kind of taken aback when i read this. it is a 'thread that urges members to use the site to bent their frustrations about singapore and singaporeans.' as written. i did only a glance on the 2-page article because i was tired. its basically bad remarks on singaporeans' attitude in the corporate world and how 'low-class' singaporeans are in terms of conducting themselves. its actually an Aussie who was quoted in the article. another part of it was just ranting how singlish...is singlish. the aussie just couldn't stand the dialects. i just felt that she was a little to harsh on what she wrote in the thread. everyone knows singapore is just 40 years independent with world war 2 still freshly haunting the oldies at times. the 60's and 70's were the ones who braved through the recovery process, the 30's and 40's were the ones who could, technically, start to enjoy this thing called Education even if its not as established as now. so by far, not being able to speak English like it was supposed to be is fairly natural, forget about PCK. next article please.!

'Mum dies in fire searching for son' title speaks it all. i wonder how the son felt.

here comes the interesting ones.

'shot in the head, then she makes tea'

ok ok. Dr Patrick Pritchard ' There is a space in the brain where a a missile could pass without doing any major damage.

'SHOT IN THE CHEST, BRA STOPS BULLET'

title is interesting enough. not only stops the bullet, it was deflected off! buy underwire.

'shot pierces helmet but misses head'

lazy to write

2009-04-19T19:45:00.003+08:00

HEY YO DO YA MISS ME. haha

i've been missing for a month and seriously have no idea of where to start haha.

anyway the coolest current thing in life is Gmax @ clarke quay..serious!! the ride was absolutely fantastico! =D

met my class of aerospace engineers (like finally after 3 months of whining..holidays are a torture) and cooly we are the manly manly class hahaha. all the girls in this photos are not in this class. LOL.

i mean life is so much fun this one month. i seriously learnt a lot of things. :)

so here is the video of my gmax experience. haha. i didn't expect to take the ride cos its someone else birthday present.

2009-03-07T00:43:00.001+08:00

it seems that almost everyone is moving on rather happily onto their junior colleges and i’m glad for them. haha. these people are really getting my salute for opting to brave ‘A’ levels which honestly, i didn’t want to.

well i guess in the meanwhile its quite boring to wait for poly admission. but i guess everything is going to be alright once tertiary education(so they call) starts. then, a thought came to me. i thought ‘tertiary’ sounds cool eh. haha. because the word ‘tertiary’ is so broad that universities like NUS , NTU also uses the term, it makes me feel grown up and ripe. haha. in other words, i’m practically a step closer to working already. as a pilot or not-hopefully other jobs or whatever, the sense of reality hits me quite. to think that it was only last year i cleared my secondary school education, i’m already starting to studying what is fundamentally going to shape whatever type of career i’m embarking on when move on. which means, i can’t go far from Aerospace Engineering, neither its plausible to study other stuff in university. haha. THE WORLD IS SO REAL IN ALL OF THE SUDDEN.

gone are the days whereby everyone is still wearing the same uniform, obeying the lame rules and slacking around after classes. i realised once i leave school, complexity tends to make itself evident in daily life.

personally i’m quite eng when i’m studying in cchms other than exam periods. whereas right now, i feel like as though i’m not on any holidays at all. i’m actually relatively busy helping out either my dad or mum. haha. its sometimes laughable to think its granted since i’m the firstborn of my family. of course, much is expected. haha. but please… i’m not minding the large responsibility i’m having now.

the world is indeed so diverse and its sad to say i’m a bit slow to understand it. there are 101 ways to getting a degree and even more to make a decent and comfortable living without one. perhaps the more relaxed ones are of course, getting a job with a degree related to it, otherwise, the piece of paper is useless.

i think learnt quite a bit throughout the holidays quite unknowingly. well at least i know it by now.

2009-02-19T22:34:00.001+08:00

HELLOOO!

2009-02-15T21:54:00.001+08:00

PLANETSHAKERS. so i went for their concert at COS. at first no one was sure if the actual team is down, but i knew even if its the second team i’ll be greatly satisfied already. then when everyone settled down in the room/hall, i see the them lurking behind the screen. though their faces can’t be seen, the sight of their bodies under the screen made me sooo tensed. so when the team FIANLLY take their position, i saw HENRY SEELEY AND I INSTANTLY TURNED OVER TO LUKE AND SQUICKED,

’ ITS THE REEEAAL TEAM’

haha. who cares about embarrassing themselves in front of the REAL PLANETSHAKERS. its those who are so dignified/oblivious-to-the-band to get some life. hahaha.

then the team kicked of with ALL FOR LOVE. which i gladly came prepared how to shout/sing/croak. man i was so into this concert that i lost my voice only into the 3rd song. haha. i was sweating like i ran the whole day under the 500 degree celcius sun.

then after the cool concert, everyone left as if they got some really really really important stuff going on. i was REALLY STUNNED. how many times per decade can you actually be 10m within the Planetshakers team? haha. i was waiting for this moment for years believe it or not.

PROUDLY PRESENT TO YOU HENRY SEELEY WHOM I GREATLY DEARLY REALLY SUPERLY NIGHTLY ADMIRED FOR YEARS. OK I KNOW EVERYONE’S SWEATING..WHO DOESN’T GETTING UTTERLY MESSD UP IN A PLANETSHAKERS CONCERT? that’s the good point about it.

disturbia

2009-02-07T11:47:00.001+08:00

derob.
yea, that’s bored spelt upside down. i’m so irritated by holidays. its too lengthy. everyday is such typical. either i get awaken by my dad at 8.00am to be told to do housework A-B-C-D-E-F or i would be awaken by my dog, barking at whoever who walks out of the lift.

great now jc start. 75% of my soccer buddies are gone. 90% of my gaming buddies said they quit. how left out i am. the walls in my room are definitely not great companions. same goes to this graphic card-less computer which i try to squeeze something out of.

well how about guitar? oh wells, i played through every song i could in my 8gb worth of songs on my playlist. emoo emoo. haha.

tv? no least interested at it. even the free football channel starhub accidentally gave us are not entertaining. cos i’m so in the news already.

how about shopping? well i covered most of the island during the christmas/cny period. no point burning my pocket deeper. even so, my shopping buddy is in jc now. ZARA is always great but not when i’m alone.

dude, find a job? no luck. haix.

and i don’t know what’s happening now.

I’ve been robbed part of my jamming time on thursday and now my precious precious sunday with impact youth is gone too. all thanks to the fridge that sooo happened sooo happened it could only be changed on sunday and not other days.. WHY WHY WHY. I NEED HUMAN I-N-T-E-R-A-C-T-I-O-N. very very very badly.

HELLLO. WATCHING UNDERWORLD ANYONE?
waves madly*****************

yea i’m so so excited about poly. which makes this worse. cos the waiting time is such annoying.

2009-01-29T12:00:00.001+08:00

WJOOOOOO. i suddenly fall in love with drums again! truly thanks to cobus!

lol. dun skip this. just watch plzzzz. haha. JB is a throw away band la. but just see he turns it all over.

2009-01-23T22:40:00.001+08:00

music now: I’ll be there for you, Bon jovi

oh man, jovi’s vocals are mesmerizing!!!! haha. wish i could have half of that charm LOL. oh wells, when’s the last post…. 7 jan huh. i guess jan is a busy month. a post ago i was so anxious about O results. now i’m anxious over JAE results lol. not that intensed though.

hahah. i guess i got what i deserved for almost all the subjects, maybe the sciences weren’t the reflection of what i’ve put in. well, anyway, i’m glad to be able to go aerospace……technically. i shall be modest and not flaunt my disaster results online like a lot of people are doing. HAHAHAHAHA.

so i guess not wanting to go jc has helped a lot. i couldn’t have imagine if i did. i would be so devastated. PHEW. actually, i don’t really know what to say. that explains why are you so blur about what i’m saying if you have read that far. thanks for not clicking on that cross on the top corner.

other than the 5 aerospace choices i made. the 7 other are a headache. really. i’m such a bore that i know nothing but wanting aerospace. wanting aerospace. lol. in hope of a piloting future. well i’ve been to no polys except TP where i go often to kick around. AND I LOVE BEING THERE. HAHA. the enviroment the people the friends the location. BEST. HAHA

AND I CAN’T WAIT FOR POLY TO START PLZ PLZ PLZ. HOLIDAYS ARE KILLING ME!!!!!
i can’t imagine the people i’m dying to meet
i can’t imagine the life i gonna lead
i can’t imagine the fun i gonna have
i can’t imagine the laptop (ok lame)
i can’t imagine ending this terrible wait

haha. britney just came alive on my speakers. my typing speed is faster now and there’s suddenly so many things to blog. talking about the things back at my head, deep in my heart…

(ok i included this bcos of youwei and evelyn YAY CHEERS!)

ALRIGHT! i’m not sure if any of you will get to read this. but i’ll honour you guys in front of the whole world anyway. its been long since i done a dedication. haha. i just felt giving it to you guys. first of all, i would say I LOVE ALL OF YAAA! you guys are the greatest people i would have met in my life i bet. i just don’t know what to say, i was beside myself when we met up the at the most recent swenson’s restaurent and manhantten. i’m really sure i would have been very different had i not met you guys in my early teens. haha. just look at the pictures. the smiles i believe are genuine. :)

for the gentiles out there, these are the people whom i met when i was 13. all of them are great examples and i really stand in awe by seeing them how they live out their lives as a testimony to many. there’s countless of times when i find encouragement just by being in the presence of this amazing clique. especially the solo pretty lady in white there, she’s our shiniang! haha. beside her amazing guitar skills, her humility always shines brightly. she takes care of us and makes breakfast for the team i remember very clearly! her sandwiches put subway to shame really.

ALRIGHT! MAN I FEEEL GOOD. CIAO!

maybe not so fast. haha. so here is the list i submitted for JAE.

1. Aerospace engineering TP –(NEW) t51

2. Aeronautical and Aerospace Technology NYP –(NEW) c51

3. Aerospace electronics TP –(NEW) t50

4. Aerospace electronics SP 13 s90

5. Aerospace System and Management NYP –(NEW) c52

6. Digital & Precision Engineering NYP 14 c62

7. Electrical & Electronic Engineering SP 17 s99

8. Bioengineering NYP 18 c71

9. Nanotechnology

10. Diploma in Business Process & Systems Engineering TP 18 t43

11. Computer Engineering TP 18 t13

12. Computer Engineering SP 19 s53

just give me TP la. lol.

2009-01-07T11:48:00.001+08:00

shout 'MOE say' anywhere on the streets now and you shall find the whole world staring at you ready to listen..
hahaha. i'm so in panic!!
ban friday!!

2009-01-04T20:12:00.001+08:00

i'm officially jobless now. haha. after some soul searching and self reflection, i don't think i should be earning that way. oh wells, money's not t-h-e issue.

so a quick check of year 2008. its a fun year la, other than the O's. i've experienced many things that i never thought i would. i did things that i never thought i would. i even think of things that i never thought i would think of. haha

basically, lots and lots and lots of things have happened. that's life and everyone has their own share of issues. so yea, the first thing i wanna do next is to claim back my guitar which is probably supposed to be back with me 2 months ago. ROAR. i really miss it. :(

SO WHAT HAPPENED TO MY UNICYCLE? AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I SHOULD HAVE BOUGHT IT AND LEARN TO RIDE IT BY NOW! AND NOW I JUST QUIT MY JOB ONLY AFTER 2 DAYS. ROFL.

on top of everything, i'm just so glad to be with yahyobabes!

for anything and everything else, THAT'S SO 2008(in a blonde's tone haha)

2009-01-03T21:30:00.001+08:00

i got a trim today. hahaha. sad actually. i wanted my hair to be a little thicker than school days but it went messy and hard to manage instead. so i decided to fringe after much frustration. the ugly photo taking at manhantten was the last straw...

i'm so so happy to finally be able to shop at ZARA.... ZARA ZARA!!!! HAHAHAHA. i bought a shirt! woots. so good to be able to shop after i get pay. it just felt gooooooooooood.

alright see ya!

2008-12-26T22:00:00.001+08:00

oooo. i have serious sun tan problems on my arm. cos its ugly hahah. i realised i havent excercised quite a while and it feels very very bad to be such unfit. :(

december is almost over and i literally accomplished nothing. congrats.

-didn't work, didn't earn......didn't buy unicycle.......didn't quite enjoy holidays to the fullest even though i never wasted it at all. haha.

JAN IS COMING! YAY

2008-12-16T21:11:00.001+08:00

hi, have been really busy painting my house. i don't really like it but its nice that this house is finally getting a change for once in a decade. well, most if not all the painting is done alone. quite tiring i must say. its not like just paint-and-go that kinda thing. i gotta do lots more like shift the furniture, lay ground sheet, wipe the walls, climb the ladder...............bla. haha. how pathetic doing these alone. plus i have only the first coating done. i don't know how much more work is left when the second one comes in. at least the ceiling is almost done and it'll be left untouched till i get married or something hahahaha. i realised music is really essential to keep the mood and help me to pace up my work. i think nickelback, aerosmith are great in such occasion.

2008-12-07T20:04:00.001+08:00

i think i'm such a lousy blogger. i never really had photos to upload plus my horrid english to go with it i use haha, probably has make this the most boring blog found ever. just looking at the blog post/day makes one think does this hg really ever existed. haha.

So close has been my blog song for almost a good year already... does this guy ever think of something new? yes..maybe love bug by jb? haha.

ok la, maybe to pick things from where i left it, i came back from class chalet and a week after i came back from KL, learnt lots of things on the way too. haha. then again, no photos to upload. i haven't changed my stand-in phone yet since n73 is stolen. hahaa. its funny that its camera function is the only thing i miss even though its supposed to be N-series. its nothing special.

and oh, i'm changing room soon. its smaller and i don't mind haha. cos its easier to clean up ^^ and i suppose its more cosy this way? haha.

2008-11-19T22:30:00.001+08:00

i picked up some memories when i first switched on the motorola v3 i have. its kind of funny how i find out what/how talk when i was 14. well other than the short battery life span, the phone's pretty good enough for a back up. n73 is stolen and its kind of irritating when all your contacts went missing. i bet there are 10 conversations windows now with me asking for contact number. hahaha.

actually i realised that holidays aren't too long neither are they short. gotta find something to occupy myself with.

2008-11-14T23:28:00.001+08:00

i did this cos i was bored at the mrt. ahaha.

He stretched himself on his chair, having every right in the world to feel satisfied he conquered his virtual foe after 2 hours of intense battle.

The sky didn't seem right to him though---it was way too dark. He laughed at himself and rushed into his room. He chose a simple tee to go with a pair of black jeans and almost walked off. The black shirt, however, was hanged neatly at the edge of his wardrobe was way too glaring to ignore. He thought that it probably would be much more presentable to................to everyone later on.

He changed into that black shirt, turned around and then tried to do his hair to perfection. As usual, he frowned upon the flaw in his hair which always screams out so loudly at him, somewhere along the split, the flaw that he had no idea how to hide it. Nevertheless, he left this home with a skip in his steps, with his collars adjusted inch perfect, shirt tucked in, in the very best way he could.

He arrived late at the gathering. Solemnly, he sat at the back, where little noticed his presence. He knew nuts of the people around him but that did not really mattered he thought. He scanned the whole hall but could not really see as it was dark. There was something behind his rush to the scene, there was something he was searching, dreaming, yearning for. He was searching.

Then it was when the spot lights were going to be turned off at the very last moment when he spotted yellow. It was pretty much the same. He was expecting something he wouldn't expect, something that would make him feel aviated off his seat, something that would make him speechlessly hide his chuckles. He couldn't help it, the suffocating sensation was surging violently out from the very depth of his heart. He just couldn't help it. He was just glad that it was dark

The lights came on at the break. He was mingling with his friends. He unknowingly chatted nearer and nearer towards the aisle.

'Can you like...dress properly?'

He heard them loud and clear. He knew who spoke it, he knew it was for him. He knew it was rude of him to just walk away and pretended not to have heard any but he did it anyway.

There was something about it, something he never ever searched, dreamed, yearned for. His world changed. He knew he was never going to be up for it, he knew there were simply too many flaws in him other than the one on his hair. He felt utterly naked. That was him, just him, with no toppings nor flavor. He's too bland...even at his very best.

2008-11-11T21:19:00.006+08:00

so i cleared my room of all my notes. hahah. in short, i couldn't imagine that i could have dug out 6 buckets size of notes to throw away. i threw away lots of things too including 2 bags(1 of which was my companion for the last 6 years of schooling) and some of my older stationary. i threw away also my long lasting adidas predator boots and my precious precious nike tiempo boots.

of course in this kinda post there would be really quaint stuffs. hahahahahahh.......indeed.

tada!
it reads class 1A, 1999

erm...that's me on the extreme left of the top row

hahaha. recognise her?

well tomorrow's the very last paper of all. i do feel kind of cool. yea.

2008-10-18T23:06:00.001+08:00

i'll be seriously dumb if i land myself into a jc.

books are not for me and vice versa.

mood: bad, frustrated.... WADEVAAAAAAaaaaa

2008-10-18T20:07:00.001+08:00

hi all. i realised that o levels has made me feel like a machine. haha. perhaps a terribly lousy one, in fact, never a good one. i was never made to study i admit. o levels already killing me that's why i never ever thought about going to college. i kind of glanced through some 'a' level stuff a few days ago and its really crazy.

well haha. i'm officially having an unemployed status now, being graduated from school. it means that i'm already FREE. its just that i have o's to prepare, practically speaking.

ooooo grow hair grow!!

2008-09-10T14:42:00.001+08:00

haha. i think windows writer rocks. cos uploading pictures could not have been any easier. i bet i did it less than 1 minute for the above.

i guess there isn't much time in cchms left. i know its late to realise that. haha.

people come and people go. soon its another bunch of people in my photo gallery already. it'll be fake if i said that there isn't any nostalgia at all. how funny can human emotions can be. haha. i felt different when it was day 1.

anyway i was looking through my computer yesterday though i should really be studying. haha. many feelings and thoughts came as i scroll through the pictures, looking at my 16 years of life in short summary.

how would i rate my life? i wouldn't know what are the factors. haha. i'll try

happiness 7.5/10-cos there's nothing 'tellable' what i feel sad about haha :X

blissfulness 8.5/10. i'm glad that i'm quite ignorant of some things around me. haha. lol. sounds so ironic.

hobbies 8e^9/10 haha. its an exponential growth! man, i'm really glad that things i wanna do are quite available. though there's a growing number of interest. but still, availability isn't a problem.

freedom 7.5/10 i guess its adequate to keep me disciplined.

wisdom 6/10. there are really silly things i do. haha.

and the list goes on and on.

i can't wait for the o levels to be history. cos right now, it isn't letting me do anything else than staring down at books for countless of hours. . . . . . . . .

2008-09-02T13:30:00.001+08:00

i guess i can only study and study till the O's are over. however apparently i'm not doing so. i feel very much like a caged birdy all ready for the cage to be unlocked. time is a funny thing, it doesn't run according to your liking, always,.

i signed up for tuitions here and there. till now i'm not sure if they would be efficient. i think they help, its the efficiency that matters. the new chem tuition is quite a queer one. being taught by someone with a degree and diploma is something i find intimidating and at the same time, quite inferior.

'I hold a Bachelor's Degree in Science (double major) and a Diploma in Education. And because I love Teaching so much, I've now continued doing this in the form of Tutoring! :)'

this is what i found online after i signed up for his tuition. haha. and oh, his questions are hard.

someone give me a surprise please.

2008-08-01T20:38:00.002+08:00

ROAR. its friday! best weekday! hahaha. crazy week. work here and there... i guess its gonna pay off somehow....

can't wait for national day. lol. outings outings and outings.

and i'm getting a electric guitar sooooooon.

2008-08-01T20:01:00.002+08:00

beyond the suffocating anticipation every morning
beyond the surge of excitment upon sight
beyond the detours one ever took
beyond the curbed toes in the shoes

the voice that drowns out the most crowded rooms
the image that glows so bright behind the eye lids
the giggles that reverbs into infinity

it was clear
it was good

2008-07-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

so i'm trying to chiong my sciences. trying to.... and physics is finally seeing some hopeful sparks. yay.

had the half the afternoon spent on books, the other half admiring guitars. haha.
had Han's today and the turkey is good. i dun understand why they gave me some jam to go with the turkey. haha.

2008-07-22T21:14:00.003+08:00

lol. warning:random random random.

i haven't thrown away my puma bag lol
i haven't thrown away the body pac
i still have my first ever hp with me sony ericson t100. lol
i still have my p5 chinese file, p6 maths file, sec1 textbook stuffed somewhere in my house...somewhere
i still wear the same home clothes since dunno how long ago
i have my p1 class photo in my drawer (!)
my mum kept my journal written in p1 for sch work

-yet i so readily tossed away practical books of chem and physics. i love to study.-

'women wants a man to be able to satisfy her thousands of desires, men wants a thousand women to be able to satisfy his one desire.' ROFL

i think the only LORMS i can have hope in is my very dearly k-a-l-i-m-a-n-t-a-n.

http://www.ohmyprelims.com/

shall i throw away that beanie??? O.O

i decided to work an ace for my dear physics my dear chem and my dear emaths each. chinese is a bonus if have. haha. english undeniably forsaken laaa.

i wan to do these after o's
-unicycle!!!!!!!
-electric guitar!!!!!!
-earn some cash for a one-day spree in orchard
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ROAR.

2008-07-21T22:40:00.002+08:00

sometimes i do feel like wanting to learn everything and anything just to write a song, to express how i really feel deep within that pumping machine placed somewhere near my chest. haha. how cool could it really get lah. at the moment, i'm still pretty much struggling with my tone-deaf.

alamak. i don't know where i am now.

2008-07-18T22:23:00.003+08:00

mood: SERIOUSLY WORRIED

i don't know and honestly am totally ignorant of what is happening to me. i can't sleep before 11.30pm and can't wake up later than 5am. i think i gonna fall sick soon! aRGH....>!>!>!>!>!>>!!

even for today's physics spa, i felt cold as if there was a downpour outside the hall and the wind blown from that old dirty fan was actually soo cooling that i thought it was natural.
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i guess there's no turning back now. i don't know why i was asked that question. whatever the answer was, it really doesn't matter. it won't make any impact.

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2008-07-15T22:25:00.001+08:00

i guess the debate wasn't what anyone expected at all. i did have the intention to do some midsummer. i never ever ever expected myself to be given a mockingbird question to debate. it was a horror question apparently. i guess i would as well throw in a m-c and declare myself medically unfit on that day. den lau came into the rescue. lol. i do have to credit her bravery. den thomas came in being very very patient with us and himself. lol.

well, the restless nights are spent trying to do up a week's work in 3. i sometimes wonder why am i doing the debate since winning was virtually impossible. some people may say its for good experience and exposure to lit. but being subjected to this kind of pressure and ridiculous debate question isn't an ideal kind of process to even start with. even on the day itself, cat high didn't really even present themselves properly.

2008-07-06T21:20:00.002+08:00

I guess its been really boring la. 3rd week of term 3 already and work has been quite rightly piled up on my desk. i tried to quit messenger-ing but failed. things aren't going well lately and i guess it cannot be a timing worse. people like me need a surprising once in a while.

its quite funny to even think how ambitious was i in the past. i actually wanted to become a lit lecturer and earn big big bucks. even wanted to become a lawyer when i was P6. i even aimed for NUS\sports school admission after primary school before. that's lame la. i thought i was very able. haha. small boy big dreams for his shoes.

when reality stepped into me/i step into reality, these many big dreams were soon buried dead. i realise how much i actually can only do and where do i really stand in fact. it boils down to the very first ambition i had; becoming a pilot. only then i realise is where motivation is available.

SP here i come.

2008-06-19T00:34:00.005+08:00

whoa. i don't know why i just felt so sian these days.

so i made a trip to evelyn's birthday party which so nicely happened to be held at kevin's house. his house is actually on top of a hill and is very impressively designed. dear me not know where's serene centre and took me an hour and a half + thousands of phone calls to find it.

1st bus trip: overshot- spent 20 mins walking around....
2nd bus trip: alighted too early- at some conthrone orchid condo?
3rd bus trip: overshot again- oh, kk hospital
4th bus trip: finally found serene centre

and i was late for 1.25 hours? never mind the time lost though. haha.

so i watched hulk the day before. but went to dover first to collect some stuff. well, some people apparently don't like the movie but i honestly enjoyed it. i've never read the comic so i will never know how aligned it is to its origin.

so its just a man who gotten an experiment wrong on himself and whenever he gets angry......yada yada
one can't expect that much from a movie when one know's that much about it already.

the acting is quite there, the graphics were somewhat reaching optimal, organised plot. its the too relaxed climate that somewhat became its liability. can't blame the show though. hulk has been thrashing walls, trucks, vehicle or litterally every big, heavy, bulky thing he can find throughout the movie, can't expect him to move the mountains or that-sort-of-thing in the climate. in other words, the audience can expect a hulk-hulk fight already even before the movie film starts rolling. the introduction of the veteran fighter, his thrist and passion for physical combats, numerous repetition of word 'fight' heavily foreshadowed the ending.

so much for my brain. lol. haix..

no wonder this picture isn't great

erhm. a steinway. dun play play. (i didn't dare to touch it actually)

oh my affairs

2008-06-12T09:10:00.002+08:00

girlfriend guitar isn't going to be at all pleased with me. cos i having an affair with ms bass quite openly. spent quite some time with bass and we're getting along very well. haha. the little blisters on my left isn't puncturing any dentures in our growing relation.

i realised bass is easy to start. ahaha. though there may be a lot a lot to learn from there, i'm quite pleased with myself.

oh my, i realised holidays are really short when i look at the calender. i have only a full week left and i haven't really started to enjoy holidays. there are lots and lots of things to catch up with physics! i haven't got a clue with chapters 22-24. haha. its time to turn to the guide book. always works.

i'm supposed to do maths now. got maths tuition later and i haven't done enough to spam the teacher questions.

i bought a pink shirt on tuesday. well-pleased. =D

woots. bring on the sunday ouch match.

2008-06-09T23:00:00.003+08:00

i feel so so loved at my grandma's house. haha. i slept over last night and will still be sleeping over tonight. grandma's house is so so cool. food, laptops, tvs, psp..... haha. nonstop lazing around. so i spent the whole day today playing the psp and my liverpool is completing its season already. speaking of 'no life....' wells..

guest are really guests here. i get to sleep the comfortable bed, get to eat supper and get to do anything i want... quite literally. man, i was just treated with a large dinner. crabs, prawns, pork ribs and fried fish...woots!!

haha. some real holiday finally.

2008-06-04T20:27:00.003+08:00

sweee lah. soccer whole day today, feet aching.

chem quiz tomorrow and i haven't studied a single page yet. lol.
time to study and burn my butt off the chair.
don't have a single clue what physics have been up to these few days. 0 things learnt. time to self study. haha

2008-05-24T08:12:00.006+08:00

i find this funny
walking dog

while walking dog

while walking dog 2

hey guys. these few weeks have been really monotonous, debriefs, chinese papers and perhaps some kicking around in school. that's all.

school's not ending for the sec 4's. meaning i have to perhaps travel to and fro the annual youth camp. in school in the morning and in camp at night. hence, the demand for uniform-only policy is making quite difficult for me.. haha. it would be made much easier if school allows PE.

exam resuts aren't anything fantastic. blame it on me.

am now studying for chinese O's on monday which i cut my hair for. man, i miss the tail. have really mixed feelings about it. however, glad that anxiety wasn't one of them.

i met roy yeo yesterday, he seemed rushing to somewhere though.. forgot to ask him about his competition.

i don't know why am i saying this, but i do feel that gaming is seriously a waste of time when you have other things a thousand times worthier of your attention.

2008-05-08T08:00:00.002+08:00

one word: relaxed.

I guess i've rested more than enough from the mid year headaches. what's left is the horrifying acne outbreak i have on my face. i guess i haven't been doing my best at the mid years and am ready to face the music. i know for sure physics and chemistry surely are goners. others, were simply not done at satisfactory level. i wonder when will i be able to break away from this habit of procrastination. maybe soon i'll do something(wow, the irony)?

a few days back, for some bad reason, i took 33 home instead of 31. that route really brought back memories of the fond and all-naive primary school days.

the bus stop at ICA building. i used to alight there and walk to school just for fun. haha, how silly.
the ICA building itself, i remember walking through it and kept looking at the vehicles which were seized for trasnporting illegal immigrants.
moving on to the canal. haha. horror canal. whenever our soccer balls fell into it, most probably is a bye-bye. as far as i can remember, only twice out of maybe 25 the balls have been rescued.

some random thoughts

i wonder how's everyone doing. except for those who went to cch, i rarely contacted others.

haha. there's a reason to be nostalgic i guess. we finished the mid-years as sec 4's. 1 more major exam before the o levels. that's how close.

i guess i haven't been achieving anything much these few years, not anything good.

there ain't anything good in taunting people right in their faces

i have the best mum in the whole world

alter ago is something to be eradicated

2008-05-03T09:58:00.001+08:00

hey guys. how's the new look? haha. : )

i guess time's moving really quickly. its almost the end of the exams, quite unknowingly, its also almost the end of our time in cchms. quite reluctant to move on i would say honestly. i guess the saying its quite true.
' when people are young, they wanna grow up real fast, when ppl are older, they wish they can turn back the hands of time.'

i've been wondering where has my aim has gone. what i wanna do after secondary school. it seems the choices are too many for good weighing. well, i guess i'll just have to plan as i move.

really glad that i have a good 11 hours sleep last night. so cool that i resisted to playing late night games. haha.

tuesday! haha.

2008-04-18T21:21:00.003+08:00

its for a better cause for you and i that i put things back onto the shelf.

people will see why one day

and another time on their day

that why i inisted on stopping, i'm getting ready actually

no one would wanna be reminded about that dirty old past

i'm helping it

2008-04-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

haiz.. there's just so many things that i'm lazy to update.
lol.

anyway, in a nutshell

-i feel school's dull with all the life-sucking schedule
-i feel i'm just out of place at the wrong time
-i feel kinda musicless, no talent in both singing and playing
-i jammed today...with myself and my guitar for close 2 hours
-i admire those who sing really well
-i admire those who have the ability to express themselves
-i really really wanna write my own song
-i'm not pretty excited about the O levels
-i procrastinate way too much
-i like getting down and dirty
-sometimes, little mistakes do get big

haha. as far as i can remember, i think there are like 4 major things i wanna blog.
but too bad, time has passed and so does the memories.

10 more days to language papers
14 more days to subject papers

haix. gonna do my best lah. hopefully i find the momentum and get it going. seriously, empty vessels make the most noise. lol. so i gonna cut down on msn-time and start getting my ass ached for studying.

no rice for me k

-HIATUS-

2008-04-14T12:28:00.001+08:00

lol.

2008-04-04T22:55:00.008+08:00

eh.. lol.

suave

lol...

so i went chem tuitioning today. kind bored when i was wating for bus. haha. so i camwhored as i think the lighting was just nice and the background suits my mood.

2008-03-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

what's this? something new? lol.

2008-03-23T19:44:00.007+08:00

i am sick of my 3 year old shoe. got a newer one stolen that's why. i searched online for some potential buys.

my choice

luke's choice

both cost S$62.50 there about after converting form USD. haha. take advantage of recession. lol.

however i will not order it though. reasons are

china company, says it all (=\) . statistics show online goods from there are fake 90%.
company uses EMS to post it to singapore, another chinese company, a possible cahoot
website doesn't look trustworthy

then,

apparently someone tried to hack it! haha. no chance at all man! cos i forgot the password myself too. haha. dun intend to even try to remember it though. those mean hackers and shoe theives!

2008-03-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

i guess for confidentiality's sake, i shall not say much. lol.

according to recent common tests results, i can safely say a 12-grade jump is really encouraging, from a 31 for L1r5 in end of year. (assuming the same grades for elit i gotten last year and b3 for english )

continue to work hard!! go go! wartime!

2008-03-17T21:11:00.003+08:00

i guess watching step up 2 reminds me quite a lot of high school musical 1, surprisingly.

plots are quite similiar. both movies potraits the characters having problems with their
passion---they can't put it to good use.

Andie West's (Briana Evigan) lifestyle isn't working for her. Her guardian wasn't allowing her onto the streets any longer. Similiarly, Gabriella Montez in HSM wasn't impressing the school initially about her hidden talent in singing. As both stories end, both actresses were wearing red and dancing. haha. which i think a hidden purpose is present.

Chase Collins (Robert Hoffman) found life in his dancing chore despite 'having been dancing since he learnt walking' after meeting his crush. Zac Efron finally found a perfect singing partner after being forced to sing with Gabriella. lol. both found themselves in a seemingly too awkward a situation too. Chase was only dropping by in MSA(dancing school name) when he met this new girl being forced into MSN whom he commented her as a 'little great dancer'. Zac found himself being sabotaged to sing with Gabriella who is a new girl in town too. lol.

With a little speck of HSM2, Chase doesn't get to kiss Andie till the end of the show. haha. (was very very irritated when these msn alert thingy on the right bottom of my screen kept showing up during the tree scene. ARGH. wrong timing to sign in, ppl ) Spoiler of HSM2 is that old man. Spoiler of Step up2 is the old truck. lol.

not bad a show la. some moves are just too sleek to even try to imitate. plot is predictable still. except the rotten fish part is quite innovative and the acting of background characters lubricated the leads. i like the part whereby Chase made the first step to walk out of the find raising event because of street competition. SLEEK.

2008-03-09T21:43:00.006+08:00

i cleared my wadrobe today. guess what i found.

my mess

my pride

my sweat

my joy

this shirt brought to me many memories then. still quite nostalgic about how my eca(then) ended/disbanded/whatever then.

was in primary 3 when i walked into mini tennis. it became my passion overnight. since then, every minute of training i was trying to make the most of it. how i remembered my seniors all gathered together in a corner with the teacher-in-charge, smiling ear to ear, showing off the medals they won to the camera. i was inspired and aspired to be like them, even though i knew none of them.

i worked hard. i built my status in the eca. from a boy who knew nuts about even holding the racket, to a boy sweating out to master close ball control everyday. guess my favourite days? tuesdays and wednesday. cos training starts at 8.30am-11am. as usual, i would be already wating at the canteen at 7.15am.

i was only primary 3 then, looking all the big brothers and sisters unleashing cool, steady strokes on the ball, that made my eye roll, always.

primary 4, school hired a coach. coach phillip. he was a black man. he was incredible. he trained us, he played with us, he laughed with us, he disciplined us, he punishes us. who cares. our relationship grew. and by march, i was already selected, second in pecking order, for the school team. only primary 4. beating the 5's and 6's, and the coach, once. i didn't care. i just wanna play tennis. i was told my coach i wanted to represent singapore in tennis. it never happened. there wasn't even a chance to start with.

tournament that year, we lost 95% of the matches flat. because all of us played for the first time. the girls have some results. however just a little better than us. i cried you know. in front of everyone. i didn't care too. cos i know i would be back next year stronger. ever since, i trained twice as hard, ran twice more than usual, and sweat twice the rate. all in hope for a tournament comeback. i promised coach we would beat ACS, the all-time champions.

holidays that year. just about its gonna be ended, teacher says coach is going on a holiday and hence will not be coming back till the following year.

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-the following year- 'march'

''hello may i know why mini-tennis hasn't started yet?''

''its started!''

''my boy claimed he hasn't heard anything from the school''

''boy? there's no mini-tennis for the boys, only for girls.''

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so i approached the current teacher-in-charge. apparently, switched. was told that there wasn't any more boys team for mini-tennis due to the principal's decision. my world collapsed. he didn't wanna explain why.

''since you really wanna play, you can help out. 8am-10am. tuesdays and thursdays. ''

so i still went anyway. i would be at the court 7.15am setting up everything. nets, poles.... i did it for a year till next year i was exiled from the team 'because of psle'. sad, i used 'exiled' because i was rudely pushed away. i didn't know i was unwanted by the teacher. i didn't know i was disliked. all i knew was my tennis and have gelled with everyone, except the new coach, who didn't seem to like me.

it was all because of that white lie that coach was going on a holiday.

it was all because of that crude comment by the teacher

it was all because of that confusion caused whether was the time spent worth

all i knew i was a P6 then. i didn't know what to do.

on hindsight, i saw a boy who was thrown into the practicality of this world.

despite the boy loving the eca passionately,

despite the team working harder than any teams,

despite all the blood and tears we shed,

all we wanted is to excel and win something for the school.

that hundreds of hours of training,

that never-ending drills, that hundreds pairs of socks worn out.

crudely got disbanded all because we lost on our first tournament.

sad eh. thanks for reading this far

2008-03-07T23:41:00.002+08:00

almost got into a accident today. could have been in hospital now.

while i was biking with 2 other bikers around me somwhere outside the market. just when the pavement got got narrower, the biker on my right swerved in suddenly and freaked me out. was only biking with a hand, with the other fiddling with my phone. and the bike got out of control.

i kind of managed to grap hold on the weak breaks and retarded a while. knocked into a few stacked cartons of beer eventually. glad that the impact was minimal and i didn't fell over nor break anything. but the sound was loud enough to catch attention of any one in distance radius of 10m.

i turned over and saw that culprit happily riding away.

HELLO EVERYBODY

2008-03-05T20:19:00.002+08:00

its been long since i touched this blog. haha. i found my pencilbox eventually. haha. so common tests are kind of over and done with. apart from the geog paper, everything else should be ok la. haha. man, i finally find myself not touching books day and night.

maybe there are other interesting things i would like to post over these few days, apparently i forgotten 90% of them. haha. so yesterday i went for Amaths tuition and on the way, while reading chemistry notes, i got hit by a heavy drop of bird shit. i thought the weather started to drizzle, yet i looked around, the very dry roads proved my wrong. so i expected the worse and combed through my just-washed hair. it was a drop of colourless liquid with red efferverscence. glad it isn't white. ARGH.

today marks the end of mugging. cool! wanted to enjoy myself with a soccer-till-drop day yet the rain kept us at bay. lol. so kind of got dampened. the on-off rain is kinda getting on everyone's nerves. when i went home, got caught in a super heavy one. got hushed off by shensong, who is holding a huge umbrella which belonged to peggy, my neighbour. zz. desperately ran through the rain. gave up halfway as i could not get any wetter. totally soaked. crap, was wearing my new nike tempo.

i got bored on bus a decided to do a makeover

oh my darling

2008-02-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

i seriously have no idea what was i doing lately. i lost my favourite pencilbox bought from ubon. ARGGHHHHH. how careless. i have no idea if i left it in lecture hall, corridor or basketball court.

i could have walked off the lecture hall forgetting my pencil box.

i could have left it by the corridor while playing with the chair with wheels.

i could have left at basketball court after taking it out to take out clothes to change.

all i know it left my possession around that period of time. silly me didn't do homework as there aren't any that night. so logically i didn't search for that pencil box.

silly me thought i left the pencil box at home when i realised i hadn't had any pencil box with me on friday. some irony, but it made sense to me, somehow.

T.T

bike!

2008-02-21T21:48:00.002+08:00

haha. we all know biking is fun. its even more fun without the hands.

cycled round the neighbourhood trying to master the art of handless biking. so fun lah. i even managed to bike up a slope without hands. yay.

actually, i do have this dream of becoming a freestlye biker since young. it all started a decade ago when i was with my parents crossing the road and i saw this ang moh in yellow tights cycling with the traffic with his earpiece heavily stuffed in his ears, typing an sms on his phone with both hands. none of his sense of sight, hearing were on the road. and that was so zai.

i forgot when i lost the fascination over biking and bikes. i think it ended abruptly after my bicycle was painfully stolen 0.8 decade ago.

it just feel so good when i bike these days.

2008-02-19T19:20:00.002+08:00

this shall be my last post before the common tests. haha and yay.

my life is getting dull again, after my BIRTHDAY and cny. pretty cool that my friends managed to stay quite cheerful seemingly. haha. wonder how they did that.

and again i went shopping alone today. muhaha...

my dear greenball,

hey greenball. you have made my day once again. :) you were with me while i was borrrreeeedddd, through the thick and thin. haha. you have my ears shut and captivated me with you and yourself only. you make me high with your rock, you make me groove with the pop. you make me feel like writing love letters to the air with your love songs, and my lullaby when in need. happy 1 year old, greenball(ever since i found you).

haha. man, common tests sucks la.

2008-02-16T10:58:00.004+08:00

haha. vday = fun day. lol. seen many things happening in school at one time. hah. so i decide to to something as well. sadly that balloon is already half dead and hardly can float. i do sound like some despo guy. haha. sorry 94382956 if anyone called u. LOL.

on the way home i deflated the balloon and sucked in all the helium. haha. and i sounded like some cartoon, just to try. lol. jing xiang was like laughing mad.

2008-02-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

vday? haha

2008-02-10T14:42:00.000+08:00

so i assumed all of you missed me this week. haha. yea yea. quite a fast week i would say. celebrations and slacking are taking up my time by a lot. lol. above is the image i edited with phone. quite cool i think. haha

so i took these two photos on my way to tuition, supposedly to be a group. was not informed that i was on the way of getting pangseh. in the end had 1-1 tuition with the tutor. cool. finally can get the gist of chemical analysis.

haha. see them so hard at work, as well take a pic while i slack.

BYE!

2008-02-04T21:38:00.000+08:00

i lug ms lau's super heavy present today. and it somehow got wet a little eventually. zzz. lol.
lame wrapping lah. haha.

school announced that the sec4's would be pushed. not really a surprise to me. haha. already heard of it a decade ago. i guess i wouldn't want JC anymore. lol. cos hotel, resort and sports managment looks very enticing. muhahaha. a hundred and one thoughts are running through my mind now. lol.

play while u can now. lol. cos after CNY, its gonna be mug mug mug. lol.

sunday match with OUCH. GG!

2008-02-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

so i met a weirdo who added me.
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2008-01-28T21:16:00.001+08:00

guess what's for me tomorrow.

0745 to 1315 normal lessons. (double chemistry)
1400 to 1515 chinese essay test
1500 to 1630 A maths remedial
1630 to 1830 bball training

CRAP. wads the diff of postponing the SS test? i hate tuesdays.

SHIOK SIXTEEN

2008-01-28T20:35:00.001+08:00

celebration is over now. haha. i still will accept belated gifts though. time for reflection bah. haha.

16 years have passed. human memory forms at 4(if you can remember anything before, good for you). which practically 12 years of living. teenhood starts at 12. so its 4 years of learning to live independently, and still learning. haha. man, i guess 15,16, 18 and 21 are the highlights of teen years la. haha.

honestly, i've been through lots of ups and downs. i'm not sure which share is bigger, but i kinda like the way how i am doing now. i am not establishing myself in the area of studying, neither do i profess in any kind of sport(it could have been tennis yea). i don't really excel in playing in a instrument, neither do i say i have loads of wisdom. i sometimes wonder where on earth my life is actually going to. there's so many paths to take and quite a lot of times i chose everything except the right stuff for me. like cca, basketball. many of ppl out there know my 'story'. its not my fault that i tend to take in disadvantages i dare say. now that i'm stuck in it. should have left since sec1. had i thought it through then, i would not have gone through so much inconvenience.

looking at people around me. i can safely say they are all achieving things and each are shaping up very distinctively. people are getting outstanding in different aspects of life. those who can study are doing it very well, those who can play sports are also doing very well.. etc. when i look into the mirror, i often asked who am i. jack of all trades, master of none. i guess i gotta really do something.

i tried swimming. gold award at p4. not a bad start. yet dropped it for some forgotten lame reasons.

i tried piano. no avail.

i tried tennis, 2nd choice single at p4. frog leaped ahead of seniors. forced to drop after disband for no apparent reason.

i tried basketball. wished i didn't at all.

i tried acting @ mediacorp. grew tired of it even though pay was super attractive. wasted. lol.

i tried scouting. no thanks. camp in 2004 scared me off.

i even tried gaming. lost the very first competition.

whatever the reason is, whether is pride or lack of perseverance, i do want to put these things behind. anyway, its been donkey years. new year, new opportunities, a new day.

2008-01-26T21:56:00.000+08:00

hi'all. cool day today lah! haha. despite the drudgery of chemistry remedial, was kinda surpised that WEIBIN bought me(and jj) a CAKE! lol. not bad arh. haha. actually was prepared to go for second round of tuition, but the timing was too bad for my liking, hence i postponed it.

jamming! woots! cool man, didn't know my guitar actually sounds nice when plugged in. haha. thanks joanne!

treat from maria @ swensons! swee la. shiok arh.

surprise treat @ ichiban! song bo. lol.

surprise ride home from auntie julia! WEEEEE

surprise call from evelyn! haha XD

thanks everyone who made my day. your little encouragements like sms-es or wishes or presents are well appreciated by me. XD

2008-01-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

guess what. birthday falls on sat. which means
-go school for chem remedial
-start of tuition at pp
-hectic day, looks like i gonna travel with my guitar again

BUT
-more presents to collect(lol? some cheapskate talk? haha.)
-see more people!!!!(i mean this ok)

haha. went pre-bday shopping today alone. haha. actually its for CNY lah. i realised how picky i was. walked around bugis street 8-10 times and 1.5 times round bugis. haha. got quite a few good buys though. hey, realised got new taste lei. lol.

big day coming! woots!

once upon a time

2008-01-23T05:54:00.000+08:00

2008-01-22T21:06:00.001+08:00

i have never regretted staying for lunch, sold by the PSP. managed to sneak up and into the classroom but the counsellor came in and requested me to eat anywhere else except the classroom. haha. ya, that's our school rule. no food in classroom. so i thought of a great plan after seeing my classmates pathetically sitted on the ground outside the classroom to eat. so this is what we innovated.

dun play play
oi. wad do you want this time?!

move move

lol?

den more

and more

LOL

i always had this camara on top of us in my mind. lol. i wonder what was wrong with eating outside. haha. anyway, mr soon didn't say anything the next day, so its cool. haha.

my love

2008-01-20T17:21:00.000+08:00

i don't really know why but ponder over my fascination of tom and jerry. haha. yes, i meant the cartoon. old as it is, but still contains marvellous art of humor relevant even till today. animation quality is precise and clear and the characters do have certain unique personalities. much was already created with both the cat mouse duo, plus a addition of minor characters(etc the orphan and the yellow bird) certainly adds some vibrancy to the series. fyi, it was first screened as early as the the 40's. kudos the fred quimby, the producer. haha. jerry is especially cute!! lol.

2008-01-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

unknowingly its a already a week gone, which means a week nearer to that antagonising o's. didn't have a good week i would say. burdens, homework, distractions all quite piled up to dizzying heights. i really don't know how to propel myself towards a serious student. already i need to catch up on my sciences, yet i still occupy myself with unneccesary things(soccer, ambitious jogs on evenings, wasteful time wasting...). i'm glad i finally start get to understand what chemistry is all about thanks to the late night studies.

obviously this year us different from last year. already i'm quite feeling the heat of the need to study. need to cut down on time wasting efficiently and get down to business. i guess i realised its a thousands times easier to dream of o level than study for it. i remember this time last year i made several ambitious commitments. now i don't really know where are they, lost them thoroughly. just like what shakespeare suggest, men breaks more vows than women ever made.

during charisma lesson, was asked what do i see myself in the future. in fact that left me dumb. all i know is that i would be working at 24, married and father by 2630 and that's all. any further was all too vague to visualise, for me at least. all i know that its secured. sometimes i do wonder if there was any impact in these kind of lessons. all we get, in my opinion, was just a short term inspiration. it could possibly cause me to miss what is really the best for me. i'm a greedy person, i don't settle for short term inspiration.

all i see now is that a large chunk of notes infront of me, not literally of course. all i need is a good shot at it. Hg needs to be defragmented. no time for crushes, no time for games, no time for dreams, no time for outings, no time for idling, no time for distractions, no time for playing school, no time for rebellion. . time to get to work, hg. good that you thought it through. haven't i realised i made a large 360degree of thoughts last year only to find myself back at the same spot this year remaking commitments.

2008-01-17T00:09:00.000+08:00

guess i have been going through these days with fatigue. time for rest, boy. hhaha. so glad that the computer which i play games on is down. haha. never expected it to go this way. i guess i shall leave it the way it is till O's are over. i'll have to cos i can't manage hardware conflicts. lol.

Ms teoh is our stand-in physics teacher. haha. shall not criticise her teaching, lest history repeats itself. lol. man, she was/is my neighbour. i don't know where, but its somewhere near. lol. was given a morale boost over my sciences when discouraged to drop it. haha. my fault for sweeping my horrifying results under the mat after EOY's. now i'm bearing the consequences of clearing up. i don't really mind cos afterall, there's still time. time to study, time to mug. gonna put down my pride and go for tuitions. actually needed it long time ago, just that i was too 'faceful' to do it and thought i could manage on my own. lol. afterall, lower secondary was a breeze. such pride. haha.

pretty cool that i passed my SS diagnostic test for the first time since..............1/jan/07. lol. just kidding la. i remember passing some tests though. just that its pathetically scarce. man, it felt excellent when ms gan put 'gd!' on my PEE. haha. good PEE-ing. how's that. lol. yes yes yes....

still vividly remember the particular dream i dreamt the previous night before. haha. pretty cool eh. (:
one more time man! one more time! bahahahaha....

don't just look. :)

2008-01-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

zz. sec4 is getting boring. it seemed an exciting year a week ago. someone surprise me please.

2008-01-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

go go pumpkin!

mist.. nice

aww....

their marigold

where's ma food?!

munchy donuts can close down

welcome to thailand

wahahaha. HG!

2008-01-07T17:48:00.001+08:00

haha. 11.5 for 0 level? lol. crap. lots of work to be done.

2008-01-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

new year. haha. i guess its always good to start things afresh. moved to new block(finally). haha. now the classrooms look more like classrooms. its good especially for us as its only the second level! cool. haha. lakeview some more. haha. its the same everyday la. i see people growing physically more mature. yet here i stand looking into the mirror, seeing the same Hong Ghwee that in P6 years ago. haha. not growing tall, not growing any fatter. pure stangnancy.

i'm just glad to be a different/transformed person now. haha. new seniority in school means new expectations from everyone. haha. i guess including people outside the school. makes me feel bad that year 2007 isn't properly cherished. now its gone. haha. but i'm glad i'm baggage free this year. whatever happened has happened.

given that i never went for trainings after my thailand trip, my stamina has terribly been nullified. couldn't draw strength today, at all. ms chan has been good about my absence. no scoulding, which i expected, but only a small request that i go training at least once a week. bonus with a smile. haha. never felt this good about ms chan for long long time.

haha. my disliking for bball is going stronger and stronger. i don't know why. can't wait to be released.

as promised

2007-12-29T14:20:00.000+08:00

bye sg

luke's hungry

not the camara!

look! dunkin donuts!

17 baht. lol

pumpkin!

bryan's on the ball.

open goal?

where's bryan??

hey cutie puppy!

i got the mummy! lol

oops. lol.

:) celebration for these kids

balloon!

fun with balloons!

puppet show. (:

darren, did you eat the fishhead?! its mine!

boo!

smiles!

ouch. the flash is power!

bye bangkok!

2007-12-27T09:22:00.000+08:00

have been dogged by questions by myself shall i cut my hair. lol. have been wanting to cut it but after some time i quite like my messy hair, even though its not presentable at all. lol. school's starting. haix..

2007-12-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

just a few weeks ago, i felt kinda a need for new songs. lol. it seems every song in my mp3 have been played like thousands of times.

and now....
a few albums received as christmas presents
a few albums torrented

which is a lot! lol. some new old songs. some new new songs. haha. its time to absorb......absorb!
YAY!

2007-12-21T14:27:00.000+08:00

hey guys. back from thailand. haha. good trip.

- brief outline of trip

reached bangkok and waited 6 hours for transition to ubon
george and friends were there already to fetch us
settled at the internet cafe, get to know friends
dinner at lotus and rested
-sleep
left for village(branpan) , reaching at night
got ourselves ready and practised for skit
-sleep
sunday service
went to waterfall
played soccer instead
-sleep
went to a thai school for christmas celebration
song
testimony
skit
give presents
volleyball
-sleep
travelled to cambodia's border
intercession
-sleep
travelled back to ubon
-sleep
flight back to bangkok
flight back singapore
-sleep

haha. cool trip la. exposure to the thai culture is really a good one. met friends there too. haha. they're home schooling kids la. after talking to them, my perspective of home schooling changed. lol. they're actually a bunch of great people. they're like anyone else, just that they dun have to learn chinese. lol.

the village trip was a qutie relaxed one though. haha. we get to sit in comfortable mini bus. never had any problems with motion sickness, which i handled terribly in indonesia. well, haha. the stars were all over. cool. until i received the letter, i never knew about the conditions in the village. haha. seriously, no one told me. so it really ached when i realised it a bit too late. coz i could have done more to help the condition in branpan. i don't know what, but i do have ideas. everything seems so fine in branpan. oh wells.

drank lots of sweet stuff there. coz its soooo cheap. haha. pity my stomach. the buy of the the trip, Lay's chips for 5 baht. (btw, S$1= 22.9 B) haha. we were joking the the mama shop can close for holidays as the made the best business since years. lol. we bought 20+ packets of chips and 5 bottles of orange juice. haha.

learnt really a lot lah. i can boldly say. met a lot great people too.
two thumbs up. =D

photos and videos to be updated

2007-12-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

hi guys i'm back from malaysia.
bye guys, going to thailand.

lol. smiles. i know u all miss me

2007-12-08T10:25:00.001+08:00

i realised, and am still realising that over the years, people around me start to grow older and older. same for me too. i think it doesn't take much to realise it. haha. just look at school, how long was it ago when i stood afar from the sec 4's being a greenhorn in secondary schooling and looked upon them in awe. now in a month's time, we would be the ones taking the o levels...soon.

haha. by just dropping by at the '6b' bbq few days ago, everyone suddenly became so different. the boys are talking in different voices, already broken off far away from their young young faces, and all have physically surpassed me. yet, our friendship was still the same. just that we have different things to talk about.

then i saw ms toh wei(haha. anyone remember?). i'm not sure if she's still a Miss but didn't care much anyway. she's a bit older now. haha. but she still recognised me. :) but not jing xiang. lol. simple things like that says a lot you know. it says that i have never grown(furthur). it says i antagonised her much then. anyway it doesn't matter.

many other people i met too. haa. in conclusion, all grown up.

2007-12-06T11:12:00.000+08:00

man, woke up and had breakfast at coffeeshop downstairs. caught this sad love story in the meanwhile. haha. not the exact way to start your day, is it.
lots of things to settle before going overseas. 9-12 malaysia. 14-20 thailand. lol. jx is also going thailand on the 14th. maybe will see him @ the airport.

i dun like rainy days. lol.

2007-12-01T18:53:00.000+08:00

hi world! haven't been updating i know. lol.

2nd day of work was pretty the same. except that i camwhored that morning while waiting for yishen. lol. was checking on my new pimple using the 3g feature and saw the beautiful pink background behind me. lol.

guess i haven't told you about that guy at work who pestered me. i didn't know whether was he being funny or not, but he sounded dead serious. he wanted to ask me out for dinner. even offered to treat me to korean food. i was totally taken aback. lol. here is this guy >4 years older than me and keep pestering me when he walked past my post. zzzz... freaking irritated by him eventually. even things like SM could sprout forth from his mouth. whatever. overall, i think i'm treated pretty well by the supervisor(was given food and cared of) and work has been very easy except the sore balls of my feet.. and that greedy catherine tired to make use of me to get a free lunch from that guy. -.-

made quite some good friends though. especially the security guardssssss near me and they're quite humble people despite their age. man, when i listen to their life stories i was so humbled. lol. not only their pay/hour was $2 lower than me, their family backgrounds are far from ideal. at least for one. they had to work 2 hours more than me too. poor guys. they're great pals too la. we talked like no one else business la during non peak periouds. lol. i was wondering why melinda didn't stop me. haha. they offered me food and drinks and even helped me to get a ball.

haha. leaving suntec was a painful experience la. new friends are really hard to say goodbye. lol.

2007-11-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

must remember to buy guitar strings k! lol. i snapped my guitar string while tuning a few days ago. lol. and i keep forgetting to buy it. a must tomorrow!

2007-11-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

i blew some money away this morning. -.=/ i took a bus to suntec early for work. and realised i forgot to take my pass. lol. zzz. so i rushed home and took cab to suntec.

wee. den its start job time. zzz. downstairs was opening ceremony and there we are making name tags. lol. we aren't invited. i know there's a lot of pressing going on down there. haha. its a huge event. though its a boring one, i heard there's a roadblock prior to this event. lol.

haha. ushering is easy. lol. after u are used to speaking to professionals. haha. when the sentences get more fluent. met really different kinds of ppl. helped to take some photos, shook some big hands, talked to some imposting gigantic ang mohs. lol. i like this kind of ushering. coz everyone knows english! haha.
until this gay-gay came and pestered me. spoiled my day really.

to think that there you are standing and collecting $5.50 every hour without doing anything during non-peak hours, its qutie satisfying. even if its peak period, its no kick. coz our job is too simple. lol. its quite cool to think that val is downstairs stoning, collecting only $3.50/ hour this week. haha. but she's gonna earn $777 in total. lol.

crap! shouldn't have visited her after work. she made me buy a $2.50 chocolate. its soooooo small. zz. nvm. lol.

i went home, changed and play bball. lol. i biked with a ball in my hand. lmao. almost falled off. till i found a solution to biking with a ball. lol. stuff the ball into ur shirt and bike! lol. i did that and got lots of stares. but nvm. i like it doing my way. not gonna waste this life w/o doing something crazy. lol. i mean harmless craze. haha. woo!

$$ ka ching!

2007-11-25T18:52:00.000+08:00

had a bad hair-cut today. saw this hair shop and thought it was good. so i decided to give it a try. lol. i was totally wrong.

that female hairdresser refuse to cut the side of my hair saying its too layered. zz. i've been to many hair dressing shop and this is the first one which turns me off. not only that lady's refusal. when i sat down, the air around me has a PSI reading of 1000. had i brought my dog along, it would have died. its not hard to infer that the lady is a smoker. a hardcore one. she even revealed half of the cigeratte bag outside her small mini pokect. whatever. i couldn't understand her as much as she couldn't understand me in communication. then she just cut some hair and say, '' isn't this more xin chao? ''

1. i dun care a fart what the trend is now.
2. i saw the irony that her hair was outdated
3. nice try for trying to change my idea

above all. haha. not all things about her is bad. she's polite, courteous and helpful in giving 'ideas'.

4/10. i paid and left.

2007-11-24T12:07:00.000+08:00

that rare tattered smile

on that ageing pair of arms folded
which carried the untold weight loaded
these weary feet
you depended on when u ran around simple to feed
that outdated pair of slippers
so worn yet you wear it everywhere simple
that brown shirt
i've been seeing it ever since birth
every breadth you tried to take
was every heave for my sake

that load in your hands
was equally drudging as mine on my pants
yet you walked faster
held stronger
than that person behind you
a third of your age and youth

you were happy it was completed
even though your energy is totally depleted
i found it was not your job
yet your very own joy

soon we got off the bus
and i'm equally soon eating your dust

that smile across your face
accompanied by that growing grey moustache
it would not have been for our sake
and you are the best person that was ever smudged

2007-11-22T10:50:00.000+08:00

hey. haha. have been watching videos on youtube recently. lol. dun get me wrong, its not those taiwan drama series nor some latest movies. its some graduation videos done by other graduated sec4 classes. they make me nostalgic. haha. man, when i see the smiles upon those familiar faces and the sentences they wrote, its like as if they're gonna be seperated forever. especially the sec4md graduation video. well, they had mr gan too. well, our turn is so near.

i'm not really sure my period in cchms was as happy, joyous as them. coz already i can quit my cca with no regrets. well, in this aspect, i really admire those who enjoy their cca and can boast how blossomed their ties they share. i do not mean that my cca, everyone is like that. well i just feel non existant there. that's all. perhaps everyone is the same except me. also, i think its just because of my pride that i've joined this cca, without knowing that without the passion for it can kill. that's the biggest mistake i guess. should have moved out while i could. its also because of pride that i stayed. sad man, its like 3 years worth of cca wasted. when people ask me why i play soccer more than i play the game of my cca, i couldn't answer them. i don't know why it has led to this. maybe because of my attitude.

lower sec hasn't been cherished at all. my fault still.

hhahaha. i don't mean to be that nostalgic here. but can't help it.

2007-11-20T22:46:00.000+08:00

after the bbq, we had nothing left. so me and luke decided to play over the pit. lol. we were burning some stuffs till john cried:''GENIE!''(because of the smoke emmited) and made everyone laughed.

haha. apparently that genie i had in mind was this.

the video was this.

0 likeness. but apprently i was so amazed by john's imagination.

2007-11-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

i guess the stay at luke's chalet was superb. :)

haa. after sound training, me and luke took the 3rd last bus to sentosa. then at sentosa, we realised we were stranded in the middle of nowhere. because there were no more buses around the island sentosa in operation, we were dropped straight at the visitor's arrival point. which happened to be a stranger for both of us.

then, didn't know that the last bus had left, we walked to the nearest tram station. after suspecting that we missed the last tram, a small enquiry in the The Coffee Bean shop behind us comfirmed that. so referred to the map. it seems really really far to walk, but bopian.

then when we were walking 5 minutes into the trial, we saw this bus. lol. there's hope! then we ran back whatever we covered in the last five minutes in bid for a bus ride at the station to siloso beach. but the bus went to parking apparently, after all the chasing.

then we called luke's dad to fetch us. hero.

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next day. ha. i think i pretty woke up the whole family with my phonecall. lol. then auntie audrey was so kind. she prepared breakfast for us pretty quickly.wahaha. appreciate that.

afternoon, i felt this unnatural urge to play bball. lol.

then went to luge(super fun la), thanks to auntie audrey again. :) she forked out another $46 for the 8 ppl whom she was treating.

2007-11-18T21:51:00.001+08:00

lol. sad to say. no more warehouse sales jobby. its ok la. haha. i've got something else.... a chalet! woots! luke's kind to invite me to his family chalet. haha. buddy mah. lol. sleeping over tomorrow after sound lesson by richard. haha. woots and bbq!

2007-11-16T23:19:00.001+08:00

just a few days ago i was still grumbling how empty my holidays are gonna be. haha. but things are different now.

november
19-23 warehouse sales job
26-30 exhibition job

december
9-12 malaysia
14-20 thailand

so practically i have only 2 full weeks of weekdays to enjoy left. i think that's pretty well balanced, given the amount of homework this holidays. haha.

2007-11-13T21:59:00.000+08:00

i boarded bus 23 so suprised to see hong wei in it. lol.

hg: yo. why you here?
hw: hi. erm... i got lost and am taking this bus home.
hg. haha. how?
hw: was taking a course at lavender and tried to walk home. haha.
hg: where's your home?
hw: marine parade
hg: haha! trying to walk from lavender to marine parade?
hw: (giggles)
hg: ok..i tell u what. alight the next bus stop and walk to this bus stop and take
whatever bus that takes you to lavender mrt and take mrt to paya lebar and go home from there. if not this bus to tampines is going to be very long.
hw: huh?! lavender again?

funny sia this fellow.

2007-11-12T09:04:00.000+08:00

aha. so glad to have found some old pictures in a external hardisk which has been collecting dust since 2005. some precious pictures have been lost when this ocm crashed, glad to have a few back. =)

2007-11-10T13:27:00.000+08:00

haha. =)

2007-11-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

i guess these few days have been going quite well.

haha. sad to say i didn't get the popular job. crappy insurance issue. even so i would have gladly worked without insurance..... sadly, its illegal, therefore not permitted. haha.

uncle's brought some things from vietnam. =) they're cool. haha. well. today supposedly going to have tennis @ ziyi's place. weather at 0630am think otherwise. was already up for breakfast with my mum. but went to sleep when i came home. lol. i woke up @ 0930 and realise i was late as we're meeting at 10am at bedok mrt. even it was only drizzling, i didn't write off the chances not having tennis. i rushed everything in 5 mins. lol. and managed to get on to the bus at 0940am. was kinda relieve and by the rate i'm travelling, high chances are, i would be only 5 minutes late. so i sent out apology sms to joan and yunting. was 0945am. yunting said there's no more tennis. joan didn't reply, probably still very much asleep.
so there i was in my new tennis gear, carrying 3 tennis rackets, so happy to be playing again got turned down by 'wet court' explained by ziyi eventually and stranded in the middle of nowhere at 0947am. its early in the morning....very. didn't really know what to say. it was only 17 mins ago i was still asleep.

the rest of the day was pretty much the same. boring life. gotta get a life and start doing some crazy things. game anyone?

2007-11-05T20:09:00.000+08:00

good to be back in school. haha. realised how important was extension week. lol. lucky i did some reading, if not the physics test today is a gone case.

i'm getting employed! XD

2007-11-03T21:04:00.000+08:00

back from chalet. haha. i dunno whether is it time well spent or not. didn't had much outdoor activities except swim and bbq.

reached downtown east at 4pm on the first day. haha. bbq time when everything got settled down. i was watching final destination 2 on nigel's mp4 player. hha. scary sia. watch like 4/5 i gave up the movie. gross. then people started to come. haix.. a bit disappointed about the attendance. that night was really.............long. roy came with his girlfriend! watched HSM2, tokyo drift and evan almighty. then slept for like 40 minutes but couldn't continue. played ps2 for a while and went to the beach...alone. hhaha. just felt like it. it was morning then. lol. i was wondering if i was disturbing the tent beside me, supposedly containing a couple, judging by the slippers left outside.

haha. it seems ps2, cards and psp were the only source of entertaintment during the stay. 3md like(love) to stay indoors...... -.-

on the second night, we bbq-ed the stuffs left over by IT. lol. was freaking budget. other than buying our own charcoal, some chicken wings and two 1.5 litres soft drink bottles, others like bee hoon, satay and otah was free. totally. haix. and we even have to ration the bowls.

i went home that night, only to find myself constipated a bit the following morning. found out that the otah was actually spoilt. argh. i ate quite a fair bit you know. zzz.. free stuff have no free consequence. jk.

Love impossible

2007-11-01T12:45:00.000+08:00

watched Love impossible this morning. really impressed by the plot. haha. its about this south korean guy meeting this north korean girl in a archeologist trip in China. haha. pretty hilarious in the first half of the movie. found out things about the north korean culture and the south's as well. things tend to be a bit rushed in the second half of the movie. i like the ending. :) shall not be a spoiler here even though it should be a very old movie. haha. there's someone who wants to watch it.